The other week I posted the most vulnerable video I ever made. In this video, I showed my tears, my hurt, and my vulnerability, and although many would consider that weakness, I do not see it that way at all.
You see, this video was a result of a conversation I had with someone close to me. That day I expressed my need for presence, asking this person to hold space and not make it about themselves, which, as it turned out, was not something they were able to do. All our experiences, triggers, and turmoils are never about other people, but about ourselves. I was absolutely ok with their inability to hold space for me in that moment, but what did that mean for me? What story was replaying in my subconscious that created this scene? I remembered all the times that I believed that my emotions weren’t ok, every time my mother, or a grown-up would try to fix my tears, instead of being there for them. This was truly a powerful moment because as I witnessed those memories and the scene that I was currently in, I no longer felt the need to allow it. In that moment I refused to continue being my Inner Child’s bully. Her feelings, emotions, and expressions, the raw Life moving through her is beautiful and absolutely perfect and she no longer has to follow other people’s inability to hold themselves.
The truth is that whenever we are vulnerable we are actually becoming available. True strength is in a person’s ability to love and hold their storms, the raw life force moving through them. Anyone can play a role and pretend the emotions aren’t there, but not as many are willing to go deep and love themselves unconditionally and radically.
To be completely transparent with you, a few years ago I wasn’t comfortable being this vulnerable even in front of myself, and here I am sharing this with you after having shared it on my Instagram a few days back.
This is the most vulnerable and authentic video I’ve ever posted. The reason I shared this is to emphasize that no part of you deserves to be rejected. Every single aspect of you has the right to be seen, heard, experienced, witnessed, and loved.
No part of you is “unacceptable”, and I hurt deeply for those that still believe that to be true, those who reject that within themselves, and therefore, as a result, in those around them.
The video referred to in this post can be viewed here.
Interestingly enough, below are some of the comments I’ve received.
With this post, I invite you to reevaluate how you want to show up in your everyday life. This is an invitation to be true, to ask yourselves who you want to be, how do you choose to show up to yourself, your hurts, your joys, your anger, your bliss, any and all energies moving through you. Are you willing to love “the unlovable” and set yourself (and those around you) free?
All the best and much love,
Anna
